... and it'll all be over and maybe i'll be able to write something decent because i can empty my brain of daft facts about language/history/culture/identity/etc/etc.
i appear to be just about last to finish exams,
story of my life that is, being last. roll on the day when i drop my surname!
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
The time has come
the walrus said,
to talk of many things.
Of shoes and ships and sealing wax,
and cabbages and kings.
And why the sea is boiling hot,
and whether pigs have wings...
to talk of many things.
Of shoes and ships and sealing wax,
and cabbages and kings.
And why the sea is boiling hot,
and whether pigs have wings...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Hee hee
Just done a really funny 'What Kind of Kisser Are You?' thing and here's the results:
Got the link off Helen's blog but as I dont know how to put it on mine then I'm sure she wouldn't mind you getting it off hers if you want to do it too.... helencoad@blogspot.com
| You Are a Sensitive Kisser |
 And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy It may take you a while to kiss someone... But when you do, it's total fireworks |
Got the link off Helen's blog but as I dont know how to put it on mine then I'm sure she wouldn't mind you getting it off hers if you want to do it too.... helencoad@blogspot.com
AAAARRGGHHH!!!
Do you ever wish you could decant the thoughts in your mind? You know, like Dumbledore does in Harry Potter, he puts all his thoughts into a Pensive, which as two major benefits. First his mind doesn't get so full of thought after thought after thought so that if eventually feels like either it's going to burst or he's going to go insane... and second he can come back to thoughts that he would have otherwise forgotten about. Sounds great doesn't it. Unfortunately us Muggles have to put up with a pen and paper.
Sometimes it is so easy to forget everything around you. When you're with someone you feel so totally confortable with that you forget there even is a world out there, or when you're lying in bed and you don't have to get up and you just doze in and out of such a beautiful thoughtless sleep, or when you see something that is so incredibly breathtakingly exquisite, or when you are listening to a song that for whatever reason transports you somewhere else... You just forget all the things that you have to think about and it's blissful.
But then there is always that moment when it all comes rushing back, when you remember. Sometimes I think that having no memory would be amazing, but then, when I get to those moments that I do forget I wouldn't trade them for the world, and they wouldn't be half as amazing if I couldn't remember why they were amazing. Does that make sense? I don't think so but I know what I mean.
Sometimes it is so easy to forget everything around you. When you're with someone you feel so totally confortable with that you forget there even is a world out there, or when you're lying in bed and you don't have to get up and you just doze in and out of such a beautiful thoughtless sleep, or when you see something that is so incredibly breathtakingly exquisite, or when you are listening to a song that for whatever reason transports you somewhere else... You just forget all the things that you have to think about and it's blissful.
But then there is always that moment when it all comes rushing back, when you remember. Sometimes I think that having no memory would be amazing, but then, when I get to those moments that I do forget I wouldn't trade them for the world, and they wouldn't be half as amazing if I couldn't remember why they were amazing. Does that make sense? I don't think so but I know what I mean.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Mindless Necessity
Just done an exam and got another 4 to go. Wahoo!
But instead of revision I've spent a fair amount of time just faffing about, or procrastinating as seems to be our favourite word at the moment.
I was just looking on the Disney Princess website to find out which one I would be, and I was all set to fix the answers so I could come out as Pocahontas - my favourite princess, I always wanted to be her when I was a kid, and still do in fact! Anyway when the first question was about what kind of hair I have I just couldn't lie and put 'long and dark and straight' I had to put 'blonde' even though my lovely room mate said I should put 'red'. IT GOT BLEACHED IN THE SUN I DID NOT DIE MY HAIR GINGER!!!! How many times people?!
Anyways, so I came out as Belle which I am very happy about because she is my second favourite princess and I want a dress like hers. And now I am listening to Disney songs and singing and dancing along.
I would say that's what exams do to you, but I would do that anyway. So that would have been a totally pointless thing to say.
You know I was all set to write something profound about exams today but I don't really want to any more I'm in a lovely Disney world. Oooh, one of my friends made a lovely comment about me yesterday, well I don't know if he intended it to be lovely but I thought it was, he said he would love to know what the world I live in was like, because it obviously isn't the same one he lives in! It's so true!!!
Love to the masses. x xx x
But instead of revision I've spent a fair amount of time just faffing about, or procrastinating as seems to be our favourite word at the moment.
I was just looking on the Disney Princess website to find out which one I would be, and I was all set to fix the answers so I could come out as Pocahontas - my favourite princess, I always wanted to be her when I was a kid, and still do in fact! Anyway when the first question was about what kind of hair I have I just couldn't lie and put 'long and dark and straight' I had to put 'blonde' even though my lovely room mate said I should put 'red'. IT GOT BLEACHED IN THE SUN I DID NOT DIE MY HAIR GINGER!!!! How many times people?!
Anyways, so I came out as Belle which I am very happy about because she is my second favourite princess and I want a dress like hers. And now I am listening to Disney songs and singing and dancing along.
I would say that's what exams do to you, but I would do that anyway. So that would have been a totally pointless thing to say.
You know I was all set to write something profound about exams today but I don't really want to any more I'm in a lovely Disney world. Oooh, one of my friends made a lovely comment about me yesterday, well I don't know if he intended it to be lovely but I thought it was, he said he would love to know what the world I live in was like, because it obviously isn't the same one he lives in! It's so true!!!
Love to the masses. x xx x
Thursday, May 18, 2006
long time.
... in a different sense this time. it is four years today since tim asked me out. amie asked me this morning if i feel alot different since then. i was thinking, yeah i guess i do. so much has happened since that day and at my little baby 16 years old i really do think i am different from then! i think tim and i probably have both changed alot since then. hopefully in good ways!
i don't have another exam now until tuesday. i feel like i'm in a constant state of pensiveness at the moment and i dont really know why. i just feel pretty melancholy and thoughtful! the weather has been so beautiful recently, yesterday was pouring with rain and today is perfectly still and calm and i feel like i just want to be outside, on top of a hill, watching the sunset and thinking. all on my own with no-one there. i dont know why, i don't want to be away from people, i just feel like i want to be on top of a hill!
random. xxx
i don't have another exam now until tuesday. i feel like i'm in a constant state of pensiveness at the moment and i dont really know why. i just feel pretty melancholy and thoughtful! the weather has been so beautiful recently, yesterday was pouring with rain and today is perfectly still and calm and i feel like i just want to be outside, on top of a hill, watching the sunset and thinking. all on my own with no-one there. i dont know why, i don't want to be away from people, i just feel like i want to be on top of a hill!
random. xxx
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
long time.
i have managed to not write for so long that i can't even think of something to write now.
i could write about exams, and how i hardly see anyone who isn't stressed except me. but exams are boring. so i wont. i could write about the rabbits that have been breading like rabbits that live outside our windows, there are so many now and are so cute to watch, but are a distraction from revision!
i could write about something totally random like how odd it is that you only will ever see things through your own eyes and i'm not even being philosophical here talking about perspectives, i genuinely mean that it is strange that you can never, ever see the same thing that someone else sees. what if every person sees a completely different world from everyone else? we will never, ever know the answer to that.
i could write something serious and thought provoking about just how difficult it is for us to live the lives we want to live, how hard it is to do what we want. it says in the Bible how we always do the things we don't want to do and never seem to do the things we want to do. how true that is. tim wrote about regrets on his blog, and how easy it is to regret either doing or not doing something. i find myself making new resolutions almost every day and then at the end of the day find that they haven't featured in my life that day at all. i am left feeling ashamed that i can't be a better person... and then the next day i fail to do what i want again.
i could write about so many things. i feel like my head is a big water balloon that if filling up with stuff. some of it useful, some of it not! and it feels like anytime soon it might burst and i'll become totally insane! i sometimes think that i think too much, and in thinking that i realise that i am thinking about thinking, which is just another thing to add to my brain that is already so full of thoughts.
i have often wished that i were really good at something, really good at art, or music, or poetry, or writing stories, because i have so much inside me that i want to express, so many feelings about things that i want to show other people but i feel like i have no medium in which to express myself. i have tried drawing how i feel, but it doesn't work. how then did the famous painters do it? i have tried to write what is inside me but it just doesn't come out right, it just seems clumsy and stupid.
i could write so many things.
but these are just a few of my thoughts at the moment. life is interesting.
i could write about exams, and how i hardly see anyone who isn't stressed except me. but exams are boring. so i wont. i could write about the rabbits that have been breading like rabbits that live outside our windows, there are so many now and are so cute to watch, but are a distraction from revision!
i could write about something totally random like how odd it is that you only will ever see things through your own eyes and i'm not even being philosophical here talking about perspectives, i genuinely mean that it is strange that you can never, ever see the same thing that someone else sees. what if every person sees a completely different world from everyone else? we will never, ever know the answer to that.
i could write something serious and thought provoking about just how difficult it is for us to live the lives we want to live, how hard it is to do what we want. it says in the Bible how we always do the things we don't want to do and never seem to do the things we want to do. how true that is. tim wrote about regrets on his blog, and how easy it is to regret either doing or not doing something. i find myself making new resolutions almost every day and then at the end of the day find that they haven't featured in my life that day at all. i am left feeling ashamed that i can't be a better person... and then the next day i fail to do what i want again.
i could write about so many things. i feel like my head is a big water balloon that if filling up with stuff. some of it useful, some of it not! and it feels like anytime soon it might burst and i'll become totally insane! i sometimes think that i think too much, and in thinking that i realise that i am thinking about thinking, which is just another thing to add to my brain that is already so full of thoughts.
i have often wished that i were really good at something, really good at art, or music, or poetry, or writing stories, because i have so much inside me that i want to express, so many feelings about things that i want to show other people but i feel like i have no medium in which to express myself. i have tried drawing how i feel, but it doesn't work. how then did the famous painters do it? i have tried to write what is inside me but it just doesn't come out right, it just seems clumsy and stupid.
i could write so many things.
but these are just a few of my thoughts at the moment. life is interesting.
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